This morning I start work at 11 but I am up and ready to go before 730. Why? Because my wife has an interview and we have only one car.
Now that we have both been with our jobs close to a year (her longer than me) we are starting to think about what's important in life. What's REALLY important. And we both landed on the same thing, MONEY. It's a dismal life living paycheck to paycheck and day to day. Making decisions between groceries and gas, what you will buy this week and what has to wait til next week. Now don't get me wrong, I like working for things. I am completely the type of person to not really care about something unless I have to work to get it and keep it (that's why I love and respect my wife so much...) but I would like it to be a little bit easier. It's tough to think of how your past decisions will eventually benefit you in the future. What I mean is that we were all told that a college education will benefit you and pay more in the future. And an advanced degree? Well, all the better. Currently my mood is just sick of the lie. I work hard and I give a sincere effort to be the best at nearly everything I do, but I don't feel so rewarded these days. I feel shafted, lied to, tricked into thinking that investing in education would pay off in the future. Currently it makes everything harder. If I didn't have my student debt I would be eating grapes and Di would be fanning me while wearing a grass skirt and a coconut bra. Or whatever the realistic version of that is. So for now I just have to tell myself that it is like a video game. And you save up now for the future and eventually you will have all the coin, all the swords, all the power ups, and unlocked many of the games secrets but for now you are just a know nothing noob who has the promise of things getting better if you really try to learn about the game and find as many loopholes as you can. I may write more about this soon. I am sort of fascinated with the idea in this country, or at least the parts of it that I experience, that going to work everyday and doing your job is fulfilling. Each day I go to work I feel more and more empty and wonder how or why I would want to do this for even another day let alone for another 4 decades. That being said, here's hoping the next few months are filled with good news and opportunity. And here's also hoping that nobody will stand in my way. You always here that crap that only you can stand in your own way, and foolish younger Mitch believed that. Anybody that has worked a full time job for more than a year has to be aware of other people in your work place wanting to hold you back. At any rate, let's hop todays a good day. I think for me, what defines who I am, is who I choose to be and what I choose to do in those fe |
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