Today I am sitting inside of a Caribou Coffee, waiting to start work at 1130, and thinking about continuing my career with the bank. I am excited at the prospect.
While the future and future prospects have allured me my entire life, I want to touch on what happened yesterday at quitting time.
Di was already home having received a ride from a co-worker. I arrived home to be greeted by my puppy and my wife. I started changing and in doing so I thought, is there any other greater feeling than arriving home and relaxing for the evening? The escaping of pressure as you switch from slacks to sweats. The relief of a day over and the clearing of the mind for a few hours. Only superceded by a Friday evening when you dont work the weekend, this is my favorite part of the day.
It's not that I hate my job. Its not even that I love my family (although be sure that my wife and my pup mean more to me than anything else ever has) it is more so that feeling of freedom that used to come so easily as a child and even as a college student. The removal or proverbial shackles because your time does in fact belong to someone else at work. You should not speak your mind so freely nor criticize anything while being compensated to do so.
All this makes me realize that either A.) I need a job with better hours or B.) I need to work for myself. I am leaning toward B. Except I don't know how to do that or what I would do. As I write this I can literally hear the comments of "you should sell this or that or take part in this scheme or that scheme." No. When I work for myself it will not be in sales. And if that is indeed a part of it, it wont feel that way.
It is possible that this week I am just experiencing a funk because I am usually a lot more optimistic and positive. But I am taking steps to change my situation for the future, however long it takes.
I will leave you with this though, I have tremendous respect for people that go to work everyday and work hard. That is responsibility at its finest. ANd i have newfound respect when somebody tells me that have worked at a company for 10+ years. That takes a lot so kudos to you.
Cheers!
-Mitch